dream about me.
Just remembered that Tuesday was fantastic.
What follows is a super long, somewhat detailed list of what happened on Tuesday.

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Decked out in my netball gear.

Totally starting playing again.

Haven’t played for almost 5 years now, it’d seem.
When I used to play, I was pretty quality though, for a chick of my athletic ability, let’s be honest.

Our team was a bunch of 14 year olds, and we were playing chicks who were between 16-20 years old in the highest section of the association we played for.

Anyways, now a few of the girls who used to be in other Patto Lakes teams (same group of teams I played for) have rounded us up and a few dudes we know and are gonna play mixed netball.

1. I’m completely unfit. 

2. I’m completely unfit.

3. I haven’t played netball in 4-5 years.

4. I’m almost certain everyone else playing tonight is gonna be awesome at netball.

5. I’m generally a massive derp.

6. Our team is called the Weetbix Kids. 

7. I’m so excited. :D

Something I wrote on the 5th of September, 2010. I think, in a way, the second half effectively sums up the entire friendship until a few months ago. Reading back on a few things and I really miss how it used to be. But similarly, the friend in particular and thing shit I went through made me the retard I am right now, and I think I’m better for it.


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Let’s just remember why I’m doing this, okay?
  • It’s not so I can prove anyone wrong.
  • It’s not so I can feel any sort of satisfaction regarding others.
  • It’s not to attract your attention.
  • It’s not to tell you, ‘Shove it up your ass and fuck off.’
  • It’s not so I can finally stop being jealous of everyone else.
  • It’s because I want to.
  • Because I owe it to myself to do this.
  • Because I need to prove to myself that I can do this.
  • Because I’ll feel better about everything else once I get this under control.
  • Because I’m tired of working so hard on everything else.

I can rely on myself, no matter how unreliable I’ve been.

Amazing weekend.

FRIDAY -

  • Drinks with Cat & David
  • Dinner & Drawn Together/Futurama with Tom
  • Snuggles and warmth all night.

SATURDAY - 

  • Began with snuggles in the morning.
  • Work 1-4pm
  • Trying to organise going out that night.
  • Pres, hilarity, and Bridies with Eleanor & Ryan
  • Eleanor’s friend gave us a lift to maccas and home.
  • Chatted to Errol til I fell asleep.

SUNDAY - 

  • Woke up.
  • Lazed around all morning.
  • Made the best breakfast ever.
  • Work 1-4.30pm
  • Now intending to make the best dinner ever.
Finally I can cross ‘Overhear a customer tell her daughter that you said you were going to hit her if she didn’t stop being noisy,’ off my to do list.

‘Perks of Working at a Coffee Shop’

Out now in a bookstore near you!

Things that are nice to remember once in a while
That there are people who think:

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Reasons I push relationships between other people.

  1. Because relationships seem nice and it’s nice to feel nice.
  2. Because for some strange reason, I find intense happiness when my friends find themselves in relationships. When two of my closest friends got boyfriends, I cried. I actually cried from happiness. I guess maybe I’m just trying to recreate that ecstasy? 
  3. Self-torture, probably
  4. What a goddamn tard :3

I GET TO SPEND AT LEAST 11.5 HOURS AT THIS PLACE THIS COMING WEEKEND!I’m looking forward to it. Not only will I get to practice milk for coffees, I will also be earning money and thus becoming closer to my financial goals of
Pay back debts
Replace money I have burned through
Start saving properly
(In this order.) 

I GET TO SPEND AT LEAST 11.5 HOURS AT THIS PLACE THIS COMING WEEKEND!
I’m looking forward to it. Not only will I get to practice milk for coffees, I will also be earning money and thus becoming closer to my financial goals of

  1. Pay back debts
  2. Replace money I have burned through
  3. Start saving properly
  4. (In this order.) 
Things I have finally realised:

  1. Exactly how I haven’t changed. I had this huge bitch about how you hated me and I didn’t see how I was so fucking annoying until finally someone did the same thing to me. And I get it. Not like that changes your mind, though.
  2. Steve is, well, brilliant. This is going to sound lame and retarded but he’s some sort of mentor, I guess. Role model? I know if I told him this he’d probably be all LOL WTF, but that’s how it is.
  3. I’m going to have close to no social life for the next 12 days. Except for two large gatherings this week, before one of the more difficult exams. I can do this though.

Five Non-Physical Traits That Turn Me On

my-child-hands:

  1. Musical inclination because it shows passion.
  2. Historical knowledge because history is sexy.
  3. Public speaking ability because you have control over the situation.
  4. Most European accents because they’re fucking hot.
  5. Compassion because it shows you can think beyond your genitals.

(Source: i-am-evolution, via identity-moratorium)

A list of desirable traits.

In a boy. Man? Am I old enough to say I want a MAN like this? I’m 18. When will I be old enough? Guy sounds too casual, but less creepy. But similarly, these are desirable traits in anyone, I believe.

Anyways, brilliant traits of a brilliant person. I’m bored, and feeling like devising a list of traits which will most likely never all occur in the same person at once, so in the end this is fucking useless, yet still and enjoyable exercise. In no particular order at all.

  • likes comics.
  • loves Doctor Who.
  • loves Joss Whedon.
  • dances at parties
  • adores winter
  • adores summer
  • sense of humour, obviously
  • loves snuggling
  • adores music
  • can hold a good argument
  • can hold a good conversation
  • would sing me to sleep.
  • likes reading
  • sarcastic
  • loves words and language
  • loves hugs.
  • happy to wander aimlessly to different places
  • happy to stay in and snuggle and watch movies
  • encourages me to study
  • smells gooood.
  • likes adventures
  • spontaneous
  • pretty fucking cute.
  • doesn’t hate Say Anything. 
Effectively got permission to move out ASAP today.

This is positive!
Moving out Checklist

  1. Study is a priority.
  2. Money is a second priority.
  3. 2 other people to move out with
  4. A place to move into.
  5. Money.
  6. And don’t forget study.